Sometimes Love Don't Feel Like It Should
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t_vos_ficsTitle: Sometimes Love Don't Feel Like It Should
Part 2 of the Drowning Out Your Love Series
Pairing/Characters: Billy/Charlie
Prompt #228 Hurt
Rating:NC-17
Word Count: 300
Summary: Charlie finds a new way to cope with the hurt from his feelings of unrequited not-so-brotherly love
Spoilers: Takes place immediately after Man Hunt Episode
Warnings: references to incest
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the Numb3rs characters. If I did, the show would be a lot less family friendly.
Author’s Notes: Sequel to Misery Loves Company. Ginormous thanks to ![[info]](https://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
emmademarais for her incredible patience in midwifing this series of drabbles (my first fanfic evah!) and for laying down some serious knowledge about the writing and rewriting and rewriting again process; and to melissima for all their handholding and cheerleading and fabulous feedback. For serious, these ladies are multi-talented. As gifted in teaching as they are in writing.
Novelist Amelia Barr once noted, “The fate of love is that it always seems too little or too much.”
Sometimes Love Don’t Feel Like It Should
Thrilling little shivers ripple through Charlie’s body as he’s swept away by his arousal. He arches beneath Billy, legs wrapped tightly around his waist. Charlie squeezes his eyes shut, but the pain of the stretch is all at once too much and not enough to erase Don’s face. A slow burn. A deluge of images churns through his mind - his thoughts a maelstrom of dark hair, dazzling smiles, and sharp eyes like his own crinkled in mirth. Charlie shifts, squirming slightly, his eyes easing half-open. A glimpse of freckled shoulders, the flare of russet hair bristling under his fingers keeps his reverie at bay. Reckless fingernails scrape across the nape of Billy’s neck, unable to stop themselves from inflicting their own harm.
Billy moves fast, fluid, strong. Charlie’s hips rise up to meet him on every thrust, rocking up and receding to fuck Billy’s fist. The calluses on Billy’s fingers drag along Charlie’s cock with delicious friction. More memories surface unbidden: the feel of Don’s gun-coarsened hand gentle around his wrist, his head ducked to catch Charlie’s gaze, a rare look of concern softening the lines of his face. Charlie’s mouth falls open, defenseless, as waves of pleasure swamp him, dulling the hurt down to a perfect ache. He seeks out Billy’s eyes, desperately wanting to anchor himself to reality, but all he sees is Billy’s face screwed up in raw gratification, lost in his own riptide of desires hidden behind closed eyes. Without the will to fight, his own eyes fall closed in surrender, and his fantasy engulfs him.
It is Don’s breath ghosting across his damp neck, tongue dragging through the pools of his collarbone. Charlie whimpers when his brother’s teeth graze the cords of his neck, biting, nipping their way down. Don is all around him now – his wet skin, slick and salty, the heated air resonant with low moans, heady with cordite and sweat - weighing him down, suffocating Charlie. Succumbing to the power of his illicit passion, he drowns.
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Date: 2009-10-03 08:57 pm (UTC)And whew! Is it hot in here or is it just the scorching angsty sex? ;-)
I can't wait for the stunning finale of this series, but for now I'm thrilled to revel in lovely lovely Billy/Charlie sex with a bonus visual of imagining Don/Charlie sex. Wow, it's like peanut butter and chocolate: two great tastes that are smoking hot together. Hehehe
Congratulations! /pours sparkling apple juice into champagne flutes to toast with you and Mel/ Well done!
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Date: 2009-10-03 09:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-03 09:16 pm (UTC)See, that was the important thing to me - that you like what you wrote and be proud of it. We could have done one quick edit pass for typos and such and published it and it would have been good, but I wanted you to be glad you took the plunge. I wanted you to be able to look back on these fic in a year or so and think, hey those were pretty damn good! (Because they really are.)
See, I don't even have that! I look back on my first N100 drabble and cringe! UGH! So kudos to you for putting the effort into these. They certainly benefited from your patience and your talent. ♥
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Date: 2009-10-03 11:48 pm (UTC)Yes. This is so hot to me --- probably hotter than you intended. *g*
The whole last part just kills me. I think it's my favorite of everything so far. The want is described so well and I just love how Charlie is pining and fantasizing even with Billy.
These are great!
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Date: 2009-10-04 04:13 am (UTC)Thank you again for commenting! I love hearing any feedback you have for me. I am so glad that you are enjoying the series. Part 3 should be up sometime in the middle of the week if you wanna tune in for the exciting conclusion..... :)
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Date: 2009-10-04 05:39 am (UTC)/twirls you/
This part is so awesome! It makes me so happy to see it up. Brava my dear!
It's so exciting to see you posting that I might have to get off my ass and post something too!
(But not before I reread this here smokin' hot example. Yummeh.)
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Date: 2009-10-04 06:42 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-04 02:02 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-04 06:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-13 12:12 am (UTC)I had to come tell you what a wonderful compliment this is; I'm just sorry it took me so long. Thank you, so much, and you're very welcome. :D